Listen to the life, What do you want to do most today?
Life is always resonating with the world, and creating something.
We just follow a subtle tendency of life.
Not me, but life makes it...
Real subbody is like this.
To be butoh dancer is to become a transparent medium of life.
This month, long term students challenge to guide one day class.
Last week, chiara guided it. I became a participant. After various practices,
she told us, "Go out to garden, and find a tree. Dance with it."
I found a jasmin tree. So sweet fragrance were spreading. Suddenly I found
that the franrance connects to my Anima qualia.
I could reseach the Anima price which I have to dance in these ten years.
It was so pleasant experience for me.
Today, Xavi guided it. After conditioning, and practice of audio resonance,
and Jo-Ha- Kyu composition. He guided us to "The blind guide".
One person put blind fold on the eyes. One more person became a midwife
to guide and guard the partner. And when the blind person find a place,
dance freely with listening to the darkness.
When I tryed this, I noticed a subtle difference in my movement.
When I move with opening only movement channel, the qualia is simple and
shallow.
But when I open various channels, the movement increases reality.
Especially, when the relationship channel opens, the movement get deep
qualia.
When the world=self channel is open, movement gets the whole qualia.
If we can guide others to open these big channel, it is shure that their
movmenet bocomes deeper and more tasty.
How can we open these multiple channels?
I have already tryed in various ways.
I have guided students to open each channel one by one.
Now it seems to have another posibility.
There must be much more direct way to open non-dual and multi-channels.
I will try to take longer time for it. In october I will try to use for
two weeks or more for opening relationship channel. And in the November,
for one month to open world-self channel. These deep channels need for
long time.
It becomes possible to reseach it with slow tempo with long term students.
This is the real speed of subbody for changing.
I realized that in the short term course, everything was not real speed
for subbody.
I had to arrange the process in a shorten process, but it was something
fake. That's why my subbody hated the short course so strongly.
We need to realize that everyhting has each own time to mature, and to
be whole.
Friday is the integration day for students. We try to integrate all subbodies
and cobody which we met in the week and month.
To open eight channels is one of the best conditioning for integration.
In the second semester, we try to enter one more deep layer of each channel
which is not clear of separation by channels. Life lives the non-dual and
multi-dimensional resonance world. We try to enter the border erea between
non-dual and separation by each channel.
At the first semester, I tryed to open each channel one by one as usual.
But I found it was the long way arround. Because I was bound by dualistic
thinking habit. I have realized so deeply I was bound by dualistic divided
thinking. I have to reconstruct all of subbody method in new ways to enter
the non-dual and multi-dimensional world directly.
See the next column; "Eight channels conditioning" of Practice
Guide
Life lives in the non-dual and multi-dimensional resonance world which
are not separated in any channels. But our consciousness can recognize
only one channel qualia at a moment.
We need to stop consciousness by swaying or any other conditionigs to become
subbody mode which can feel the non-dual qualia stream. Then we can catch
the moment which specific qualia come out from the non-dual realm which
each channel is not separated clearly. It is the border zone of qualia
between non dual realm and divided realm by each channel. Here is the most
creative world where so diversitive transformations are happening at every
moment.
Bodily sensation
Feel the breath of life with long tide rhythm which is your all cells spreading
arroud for one munite with changing resonance patterns, and fading for
one minute.
Feel the qualia stream in the darkness of body. There are streaming so
many qualia in non-dual and multi-dimensinal world.
Remember your dream world. Resaeach the twilight zone when a dream starts.
In the beginning, we are floating in the non-dual chaotic world. Everything
is not separated clearly. And when we notice, a subtle body sensation comes
out from the darkness.
Slowly it becomes clear, where here is, and who I am.
You can feel a posture of your body and feeling of existing at a specific
world. And the scene becomes clear with visual qualia and sound and so
on.
Taste this transforming moment from non-dual qualia stream to a clear body
qualia and the other channels separating. Always our life is floating in
the non-space, non-time multi-dimemsion. Dreams guide you between non-dual
and multi-dimemsional world to lower three dimansional daily world which
is clear "Where here is, and who I am." with a bodily ssensation.
Chaos of moving qualia
Feel your hidden joints and muscles with being twisted and reverse twist
qualia.
Your pelvis, ribcage, spines, legs, arms, face are warped in various direction,
and reversed warp.
Taste the chaos which various moving qualia are streaming in the darkness.
And catch a moment when a specific movement comes out.
Twilight zone of visual qualial
Feel the darkness of body which various subtle light streaming. It is the
twilight zone between darkness and brightness. Taste the moment a shape
comes out from the dark chaos. Always a dream starts like this. Also subbodies
start like this.
Deep silence with full of sound
Listen in the darkness, also there are full of subtle sounds and noises
in the silence.
In the non-dual realm, there are no border between silence and sound.
Feel that so many inner qualia of musics, rhythms, voices are streaming
and they are wishing to come out.
Each rib starts twisted in three dimensions. All hidden cavities change
shape and resonante with breathing and body sound.
Emotional stream
Unknown someone warps your body into the limit. Catch the moment a emotion
comes up from the change of body condition. We cannot name it, but feel
the diversitive emotional stream. Your face resonates with various emotinal
streams.
Relationship in proto stage
Various age's qualia of relationship are resonanting in the darkness of
body.
When we are baby, we search mothers breast and drink milk. When it becomes
full, we discharge. It the most pleasant moment for baby. Feel that mothers
milk streams down from mouth to anus and digested into your body. It is
the biggest sexual desire for baby between mouth and anus. Taste the very
beginning moment when your human relationship channel opened. it is the
moment when you separated from the non-dual oneness qualia of the fetus
and womb.
Sways of world-self images
Our world images and self images( =Qualia of world and self) are always
swaying. Among the qualia of "Everything's good" and "Something's
wrong". Taste the swaying. It is resonating with your deep body qualia
stream.
We entered into sponteneous resonance world.
Students have trained so many different resonance pattern, now any instruction
is not necessary. We just follow spontaneous life resonance. Every moment
is experiment. We just find the most novel resonance patttern in every moment.
We will polish this experiment during the semester.
Last week we did conditioning of five hidden qualia which are folded at
hidden cavities, hidden joints, hidden mascles, hidden fluid, and hidden
skins. Students met so many novel qualia and explored them. Through this
experiences so many subbdoies came out.
It was the first stage of of Sen (=Novel, fresh, intersting) of Sen(Novel)-Shin (Deep) -Hitsu( Necessary) researching method.
"Sen-Shin-Hitsu" method for reseaching
Sen (=Novel) : Folow novel, flesh, intersting qualia widely
Shin (=Deep) : Reseach dep connection with your life, forthe individuation
Hitsu (=necessary) : Invent necessary subbody-cobody movement for survaval
as becoming life
This week we will enter into the second stage of reseaching ;Shin( =Deep). When we will meet novel qualia, we try to reseach deep conections with hidden memories, proto dreams with a specific qualia. Then it grow up to deep individuational stream with own whole qualia.
Individuation is a special term of Jung. It means to become oneself with
opening full of potentials.
These hidden conections are folded in the unconsciousness. Our consciousness
cannnot remind them, because they are belonged in subconscious realm.
We need to become subbodies to contact with hidden connection and hidden
constellation.
When we stop daily htinking, and become subbody mode, we can catch subtle
siganls which are folded in various hidden part of body.
To reaserch five hiddens will help you. With reseaching five hidden part
of the darkness of body, listen in subtle forgotten conections between
movement and inner qualia stream.
Slowly special hidden constellation which only you can feel will come out
and it will guide your subbody movemet into the deep individuational world.
Resonance between different dimensions, this is one of the most basic plinciple
of life.
In the nature, eagles,plants, bacteria live in different dimensions and
resonating together.
Dead creatures are rotten in the earth, bacteria eats them, plants get
nutrition from them and generate ogygen gas through sun shine energy, and
so on.
The dgrees of resonance are different, some one is directly, another one
is very far resonance.
But anyway every life is resonating in different dimansion.
We can learn various resonance pattern from nature.
When we get this thechnique, theater become so novel world.
This week students reseach the different dimansinal resonance in various
channels.
One subbody open audio channel, and make various body sounds, the other
subbody resonate with it in different distance.
Sometimes similar resonance which body movement and sound sychronize.
Sometimes body movement takes distance from audio stream, and keep its own rhythm.
When we can control these resonance pattern in varius distance,each subbody
can be in diffferent dimansion in a space.
Slowly students learn various resonance pattern, then subbody cobody theater
becomes so rich taste which we have never seen before.
We wiil continue to investigate in this.
There are hidden novel posibilities infinitely.
In this month, we research, Kugutsu body, Nest body, and cobody resonance
in different dimansions.
And how to open and control emotional channel.
Students integrated all of their researching for subbody and cobody.
The difference is so subtle, camera could not catch.
But slowly their subbodies and cobodies are changing with wearing other
world.
Students are going to have one week open workshop, at Dharamsala.
Each student will guide one day workshop.
He or she have to take all resposibility of the process from conditioning,
reseaching, and creating.
It is the first step for becomeing a midwife for subbody-cobody process.
In subbody method, there are no teacher, but midwife as a role of facilitator.
To become midwife, we need to through out our ego, self, and to become
resonating life.
Because subbody is like a fetus. It is hidden in the darkness of obody
for long years.
We need to just listen in their bereth of life, and give the most helpful
support at the best timing.
If we are bound our selves, egos, it doesn;t work.
This is the nessesary step for becoming resonating life.
It is the big pleasure for me.
What unique subbody and cobody will come out?
We meditated with audience for a while before starting the last weekend
theater.
Because an essensial change is happening on student's body in the second
semester, but it is too subtle to notice by busy daily body and camera.
Only at the real moment we could share it through life resonance, it was
so tasty.
Students became a quiet body through the breath of life.
And started to carry the quiet body as an ash walk.
The biggest change was what students became to listen to the other world.
They wore other world, and carryed it.
They could listen to so many qualia from the other world.
Exactly saying, it is not only a world.
Life is resonating with so many other worlds; dead world, hidden life memories,
forgotten dreams, past life memories when we were another creature, underground
world, heaven world where so many archetypes are floating, uiverse, and
so on.
We can wear and carry all of othe worlds.
When students started walking with them, they could control all of the
space with unknown indications.
From various other worlds so many qualia visited their bodies. They also
wore them on the various parts of body, and hidden skins as subbodies.
Subbodies wanted to come out, but students controled them at the minimum size.
This is the Nest body. They carryed nest body quietly.
They could become to wear so many layers of qualia.
This was the biggest change, though it was so subtle that daily eyes could
not catch it. Also it is unable to catch by camera.
Everyhting become more subtle and quiet littele by little.
I recognized that it took time for half year for changing of body and mind.
This is the reason why I had to close the short course.
Slowly slowly we are entering a novel realm together toward the butoh of
life.
