Proto Dream Theater

Students created each dream body piece together.

It has real and deep qualia which we cannot forget.

These real qualia become the blood of butoh.

The taste of student's dance became much more thicker than ever.

We met each own secret for life

We need to solve the secret someday.              

It connects to our necessary butoh dance which we have to dance for surviving.

This is the entrance to the necessity of dance for living.

This is the ticket to travel into the depth of Hijikata Butoh world.

Without own necessity we cannot approach the world.               

Now everybody get the ticket.        

The preparation was ready.

We can sink down into deeper realm.        

We have proto dream which is the strongest nightmare, or

A repeated dream for many times, or

A deepest impressive dream unable to forget even only once.

Proto dream is the deepest qualia which is imprinted on life.

We call it original dream or proto dream.

Students danced own proto dream during this week.

In the deep layer of subbody world, there are no boundary between self and others, students entered others dreamland and co-created each dream world together.

On Thursday, we visited Kangra fort near the school which is a ruin of the Middle Ages of India, and each student found the constellation and landscape fitting to own dreamland.

Every student entered into each other's dreamland and and co-created nine dream worlds.

The Himalayan mountains came out from the cloud and watched student's dream theaters.

Amazing Resonance for 5 weeks ---Gio

Actually,I can't tell you how I've been feeling.

Oneday (after starting this course) I dreamed. In the dream, i was changing my clothe in front of the mirror. The first clothe was nice, but some times later I changed again. I saw me through the mirror. I wore a beautiful clothe, the most beautiful...

It looked like an unique coat really nice. It's fitting for me, most fitting...

I said in the dream, "It's really fitting for me, most suitable!!"

Sometimes  I think of that dream. I feel like to take off, change clothe, wear new clothe, these days doing butoh.

Some one said to me about "[empty house] which the wind and air go and come easily". I imagine that my body become like empty house.

and I'm searching so many faces, so many bodies, so many sounds…

So many stories of body…from ancient times to now…

From other life to my life…

Amazing Resonance!

As I said when I went to Cambodia I had some strange feelings.

Why they live there (on the big river)? Why they stay on the street begging?

Why I'm walking passing them without doing together something?

Why I live in Korea at this time?

What relationship between them and me or you and me or me and even street dogs ,small trees, wild flowers…

Now I think, maybe it's resonance. I read some words like this.

"Sympathetic resonance"!! Anyway now I'm looking for various resonance through body.

Resonance will be one of the most important word in my life like a solidarity of various life in society.

You said " life resonance" Yes, life resonance.

Also the resonance with other students was amazing.

With deep emotion really I love their subbody.

And…Qualia!!

Too many Qualia! In our life… Can see can feel or can't see, can't feel…

In my case strong Qualia was in some memory.

One day you said "Close your eyes, and walk forward to your past life"

I was walking but suddenly I couldn7t walk.

I didn't want to see my past. I hesitated to go.

But, sometimes later, following your direction, I was walking in the unconscious condition. You said "Ask your life"

Yes, I did, and I waited for some answer.

And… you know what happened! My body answered for my asking.

My body remembered many things. Really amazing moments!!

The memory of the body!! I followed my body.

Sometimes I forget "I", erasing ego slowly.

When I gave up ego maximumly, there was a new world.

It's the greatest moment. I felt like "meditation of body"

I had an amazing experience in the vipassana.

But it's not enough to keep equanimity in my mind and to observe my body.

I want to express my pressure through body.]I want to comminicate our pressure in the social system… looking for the hidden "I" or nothingness.

Subbody methods

The methods were enough to help me to look for hidden "I".

It made me relax extremely and dissolved me.

Amazing methods to research skin,, bone,, joint,, all of inside.

Yes, I can be everything. It was enough to make me shiver.

Do you know? Why I started this traveling. I wanted to be born again.

You remember? One day I was baby in the new world…

I love some deep darkness beyond the line between darkness and light.. between happiness and sadness.

This body is wearing too many clothes. So heavy!!

I'm taking off one by one. Someday I'm wearing wind, darkness, some eyes and other creatures.

It's new road in my life. I've never thought about this, but I don't fear. I'm falling in love with subbody.

Coming back soon.

Just I'm thinking of the date.

Which is better? This September or next March for one year course.

Of course I want to come back as soon as possible.

Thanks a lot!!!

                                                                    Gio

Entering into Non-dual realm

"Shisha (the dead) transform their shape quietly and infinitely.
It is not rare that they use shapes of others flexibly and naturally."
(" Quiet House" Hijikata Tatsumi")

Moving Nomad Theater grew up to Stray Nomad Theater.
This week all ten students became a group and separated as a subbody at various place around the school. Uncertainty increased than the last week. Every moment the constellation is changing from a shape to another quickly. When some one lost the timing to start, then another world came out imedeately. This is the Stray Nomad Theater. All students entered into non-dual world which the group and the individual shift each other momentary, the qualia of self and the world change mutually.
This is the true reality of the realm of life. Life resonate with Shsha (the dead) and behind world dynamicly.
Slowly students have experienced the Hijikata's Butoh world which"Shisha (the dead) transform their shape quietly and infinitely".
I was aware of it suddenly.
I have pursued the Nomad theater for long years without recongnizing the relationship with Hijikata Butoh under influenced by philosopher; Michel Foucault and Gilles Deleuze, I just reseached the novel way of being after the human. But that way was connected to Hijikata's Butoh world.
Subbody method was developed independently from Hijikata Butoh method for these fifteen years, but finally both of them became oneness.
In the non-dual realm the boundaries to separate each thing disappear, and become oneness.　Everything is defferent from daily world, there are no boundaries between cobody and subbody, between group and individual, between world and self. It is very real world where life is resonating with everything in non-dual and multi-dimensional realm.
We could find the entrance to the non-dual relation-ship world through the stray nomad theater.
We will enter the non-dual realm with learning the "Quiet House" in this month.

Moving Nomad Theater

Each of students danced at one's favorite place one after another, and the others follow it as a cobody group. This is the Moving Nomad theater. Surprisingly, this year's subbody school is proceeding so quickly.
Normally, we used to try the nomad theater in June or July, but this year it came out at the third week of March.
What is happening? Time becomes so condensed. And so rich creations of subbodies and cobodies came out from the darkness of ten student's bodies.
Anyway, the very good conditions for infinite creativity of life is ready through the resonance by all.

Landscape and Constellation

We have been in the Himalayan Rock garden this week.
There are a lot of rock and stone as the teacher of quietness.
We became the quiet body at first, and listened to subtle qualia.
There are a lot of slopes as the teachers to learn different qualia of the gravity.
There are a lot of variation of the landscape which gives us a lot of variation of the constllations. Landscape is physical thing, and the constellation is invisible thing which only life can resonate. We learned both of them in the Rock garden.
People are moving on the physical landscape, but they are dancing with invisible constellation which each life resonates.
Students crated own Jo-Ha-Kyu in the variations of landscape and constellation.
The constellations are connected with various other worlds behind this physical world. Students listened to the subtle qualia of the behind worlds.
Slowly our subbldies and cobodies grow up through these rich experiences.